Boys will be Boys !

Just a chance to share more pictures !

AGAIN & AGAIN !

Tormented.

Numb would be an accurate way to describe the filter that has been placed over my life.
I am blessed to have many who love me and while I recognize that, I can’t help but slip into a state of numbness….

The consequences of our decisions can be overwhelming at times. Is there a greater good, the optimistic aspect of my character continues to believe but it is facing significant challenges.

Love,
Dad

Happy Birthday Louis !

Louis is 9 years old today.

Louis I hope you had a great birthday and I want you to know that I thought about you all day today. I sent you a birthday email and I hope that you received it !

9 years old ...Wow.... I can still remember the day you were born.

I can't seem to find the words to express how much I miss you and love you.

Happy birthday Louis.

Love,
Dad

If I Had Known

If I had known

I would of loved you even more
I would of enjoyed your laughter and smiles even more

If I had known

I would of said yes even more
I would of given you even more

If I had known

I would of taught you to be even stronger
I would of taught you to love even more

If I had known

I would of spent even more time listening
I would of spent more time teaching and playing

If I had known

On bended knee I pray, I didn't know !

Love,
Dad

Always your father !

I carry you both in my heart but that has become a lonely place of late.
I think of you always ....

Life has in many ways stopped

All I ever wanted was to be a father, and you both made me proud to be just that.
You are both wonderful boys and I miss you so much and long for the day when I can tell you that both in person....

Long for the day

Be strong, be well, be my sons.

Love,
Dad

My Boyz

Every single interaction at some level leaves an imprint...

At this time in my life I need to believe that all interactions at some level leave an imprint...

I get these memories that come flashing into my conscious thought, memories that are so clear and comforting, that they actually warm me !

I know that my boys are out there interacting and making their own imprints and that is what I miss. They are two incredible individuals and I would love to see them interacting or at least hear them talk about their experiences so that I could speculate as to what imprints have been left on them.

Love, Dad.

Finding Strength

A new blogg , A new start , A new image.

The same journey , The same loss , The same love.

Yuta and Louis Darisse, how I wish you were here or I there.

Love, dad